It was one of those mornings. I woke up unthankful. Unthankful that I could walk, that I could see, that I could taste, that I could talk to my wife. Because of my heart of ingratitude, my wife left for her work probably wondering why her husband was panicky about the day that had barely started. I left the house in a hurry, upset that it was raining, upset that I didn’t have exactly what I would have liked for breakfast, upset that I did not take more time to show my wife that I was grateful and I was worried about whether or not the day would pan out as I envisioned.
At 10 AM I picked up two pieces of free furniture for the youth room worried if they would get soaked by rain on the back of my pickup on the 20 minute drive home. They did. On my way back down 65-S I was stopped in traffic due to an accident. As I approached the scene of the accident, I half-heartedly offered a prayer for the driver’s safety and at the same time was still upset that the traffic was so backed up. Was I thankful for free furniture? Was I thankful that I had a vehicle to pick them up? Was I thankful that the Lord allowed me to not be involved in an accident?
By God’s grace, not long after waking this morning, I read Psalm 120 and 121. Now as I sit in my office, the words of the Psalmist are ringing in my ear… “My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth…The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.” I’m reminded how desperate I am for God. Left on my own, I will let rain and furniture and food determine my joy at times…how pathetic! This morning revealed a heart of ingratitude and a heart of self-reliance and a heart of distrust in God’s plans for the day.
It is one of those mornings now. I’m reminded that God is my keeper. God is my hope. God is my help. God is my joy. I’m thankful for God, for my wife, for my church.
“Lord, give me the grace to be thankful at all times, in all circumstances. Teach me your ways and show me your truths and mold me into a man whose heart finds satisfaction and joy completely in you, giving thanks and praise constantly for who you are and what you’ve done and what you have promised to do”
WA Kimble